“There was such a great distance of water between us. An ocean made up entirely of judgment and misunderstanding. Ignorance and selfishness. And I was drowning in it. “

“I’ve gotten good at drowning silently. At sinking dangerously beneath the waves as silently as a leaf falling. Making sure not to bother anyone else with my despair. Making sure not to be an inconvenience “

An intimate, personal memoir full of powerful stories that show a glimpse into what it is like to need to stay silent.

Abigail had been struggling for as long as she could remember. Struggling to understand why she had been slowly drowning in silence from the inside out. All the while acting as though nothing was wrong.
Why she felt all of these feelings when she had always been made to feel as though there was no reason for her unhappiness. No reason for her to feel hurt and neglected.

She had to go on a journey of self-exploration a journey of peeling herself apart to reveal secrets that she had always kept buried safely out of sight. Having to question herself and her actions as well as the actions of those around her.
Viewing her life through fresh eyes in order to see what the reality was rather than what she had always been told was normal.
Finally allowing herself to see the impact that other actions had on her. And how utterly broken she had become in her endeavors to keep everything hidden.
Having to confront how utterly alone she had become and how silently she had fallen into the shadows in order to keep her secrets hidden.

Having to confront all of the feelings of depression, neglect and rejection that she had refused to see for years. Abigail’s journey isn’t just about what she has gone through or how she has gotten through it. Her story is about coming to term and seeing things for what they are.
It is about forgiveness of others and herself and learning how to continue on with life even after it has fallen apart. How to tear down walls and replace them with boundaries in order to let people in while removing toxic people from her life.

A journey of learning who she is at the core and finding herself and her voice. Of reclaiming her value and helping others to know that they can do the same. In the hopes that this can be one of the inspiring books for women to help them reclaim their voice.

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Live Life: A Short Guide On How To Live A Conscious Life Through Meditation


Can you say that you live consciously?
What is awareness that has been talked a lot?
You may not be aware of your lifestyle, habits and thoughts, having the ideas, goals and dreams of other people. You may not be aware of your true values, life priorities and inner desires. You may live “unconscious” in this moment because you are full of past regrets and worries about your future. 
So what is awareness?
In a word, awareness is when a person does not just live his or her life but truly ‘lives’ every moment of it. 
My book “Live Life” will tell you how to introduce new habits of your own awareness.

It is great to stay alone with yourself, purge of all conventions and after several days of practice you will begin to hear your true inner voice. This voice says that everything is in our hands and only a person can have responsibility for what is happening and direct own life to a personal way of development.

Awareness allows you to enjoy life in full. When a person lives consciously, the situation “Oh, I’m 80 but it’s so as if I haven’t had have my life at all”. It is not about this person. He had his life. And at 80 he will continue to enjoy every day of his being and not be sad about missed opportunities and unfulfilled dreams.

F*** Leadership: How to Motivate and Mentor Your Team to True Success


You want to succeed. You want to reach your goals. Even more,
you want to make a difference. You want to inspire others and help
them to succeed.

But that takes leadership. And according to what you have
seen, heard, and read, that means you have to be a larger-than-life
personality. You have to have a celebrity status on social media. You
have to be the most organized and structured human on the planet.
You have to memorize thirty-seven different personality types and
know how to communicate properly with each one.

How in the world can you do that and still find a way to lead
by example? Apparently, being a leader is only for super-humans
that have some type of natural-born qualities the rest of us just do
not possess.

This is what you’ve grown to believe. That is why your business
has become a struggle and a burden instead of a purpose and a passion.

I’ve mentored some of the top leaders in the network marketing industry, and trained thousands in my online training groups. I’ve spent four years developing simple systems that help average people to get extraordinary results.

This book will challenge you to lead from the front and become the kind of person that people want to follow. You will also learn simple systems, that when applied, will lead to team energy beyond what you could imagine!